I Don't Know Why I'm Scared of Cancer

Other than it being a horrible and unfair disease, I really don't know why cancer is my biggest fear.  Statistically, I have no family history of cancer.  Which I think is pretty remarkable in this day and age.  I find it odd that I am so afraid of getting cancer even knowing lack of family history makes the statistics a little more in my favor.  Yet recognizing that it is an odd fear makes me feel a little better - although no less fearful.

Today's Not the Day

On a recent trip to Six Flags I got in line to ride a roller coaster but then decided I was short of breath so I just stood aside and waited as my husband and youngest son rode (twice).  Although I'm not a fan of roller coasters, I'd ridden this coaster before and remembered it to be enjoyable so it wasn't fear of the ride holding me back.  It was simply the feeling of being slightly short of breath combined with the knowledge that I have a minor heart condition that was found during a recent physical but for which I have not yet seen the cardiologist.  Yet as I stood there waiting it occurred to me that it is not July 12, 2017 so obviously I would survive the ride.  I suppose I might stroke-out and wind up in a non-productive state until I ultimately die on July 12, 2017 but I try not to dwell on that too much as I am hoping for a quick and painless death.  I rode the coaster later in the afternoon and, obviously, I survived.  Although it wasn't as enjoyable as I remembered (from 11 years prior) it was still fun.

Still Learning

For all my loyal readers, I apologize.  I've been blogging for over a year now and have been very consistent in posting weekly.  Sometimes I have more than one thought in a week so I write a draft post but don't publish.  Recently I've posted some drafts that I wrote some time ago.  I did not realize that the posts inserted themselves into the chronological order of when they were created.  So it looks like I haven't posted in a few weeks.  If you are interested search for the titles "Analysis of a Dream", " Knitting Baby Blankets", and "Just Call Me Martha".  Going forward I will fix it so that doesn't happen.